Go Figure.

In life, you come across all kinds of people and you maintain different relationships with one and all- sometimes the relationships get complicated. You don't know what that person actually means to you. Take for instance, I had a very close friend a few years back, we had a fight OVER A DARNED GUY, then patched up again, fought, patched up, fought, patched up, and finally she blocked me off her Facebook. Tragic, eh? Yeah, it hurt. A bit. No, a bit more than that, but I grew out of it.
We started ignoring each other real bad. Each time I saw her, I got mixed up about my feelings. I missed her, yet I resented her. I wanted her back in my life yet I didn't want to see her face ever.
It was bad. Trust me.
...Till yesterday.
I opened my Facebook account to check the latest, and I saw her on my friendlist. Once again, a muddle of emotions. Therefore, I sent her a message which was also an assortment of all my emotions- I asked her if she was going to block me off this account too. Yes, I was scared that she'd probably ACTUALLY block me, there was also some kind of hope where I thought that maybe.. just maybe everything would become back to normal.
Fortunately, she didn't screw me up again, she just wanted to start fresh, and I am very satisfied with that.
Now, what were we those few months where I cared for her yet hated her? Were we friends? Rivals? Were we immature teenage friends fighting over nothing or did the hatred actually mean something? I don't know. Maybe it really didn't mean a thing.
But I've learnt a lesson, next time, I feel something genuine for someone, no matter how much I have to lower down my gigantic ego, I will let them know.
The Queen of Blah will also bow down to her people, once in a while.

Queen of Blah signing off yet again. :)